Daemon Grotto

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2022-07-09T11:44:15-04:00

I really think it depends if you have an entity already that is real around you that wants to make themselves be more known to you.

This is what I suspect is happening for those who find success with this sort of summoning method. It might even be the case for all summoning rituals, like the letter method, that a spirit is already interested and just needs that confirming push from us to make themselves known; like a marriage contract of sorts. Either way, that's cool how you've established the identity of "K" through two unrelated spirit-keeping vendors. I find that they'll often do things like that to help us along, so we're not entirely fumbling around blindly, yet they also give plenty of room for independent discovery and learning. There's always several new mysteries to ponder for every revelation.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Sat Jul 09, 2022 11:44 am

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2022-07-08T14:13:54-04:00

So you've found success with some of the spirit keeping vendors?

I believe different vendors are more skilled (some at making money and some at actually doing what they say).

Overall I think online retailers of spirits are BS. But I can’t say that nothing will happen (some retailers have forums and people swear to experience stuff)…I really think it depends if you have an entity already that is real around you that wants to make themselves be more known to you.

This gets more convoluted because two different vendors with no contact summoned a “K” named entity with VERY similar sounding names without knowing these names were already known to me and had been bouncing around my brain for a long time. THEN they described what each separate entity looked like and it matched appearances I had seen in OBEs-one to some details I can’t share.

I actually felt at the time like I wasted my money (because I already had these entities), but then I felt validated and thought I could look at this as “proof” at least to me that I am at least knowledgeable of her name and appearance…now I realize they are shapeshifters but mine at least have a general appearance they frequent.

The other entities that are purchased and actually received (can tell they are there) are non-sexual and I think K might have seen I was interested and perhaps “made it happen” I really don’t know-hell she could just be pretending herself. Sometimes I feel like she just says what I want her to.

In summary I think your mileage will vary but I am not making ANY more purchases.

Statistics: Posted by 369 Riddle — Fri Jul 08, 2022 2:13 pm

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2022-07-07T18:43:39-04:00

Honestly TC I don’t know what actual entities are around me but a few.

I am also unsure about this. I believe there are at least two spirits who are around me regularly, based on dream and OBE interactions, but from my end it all feels like just Catherine. I try not to get too hung up on who-is-who.

It is amazing to experience so much and know so little!

That's a good way to put it.

So you've found success with some of the spirit keeping vendors? I personally don't have much interest as Catherine is more than enough on my plate already. I'm suspicious of would be spirit-binding merchants who attach entities to trinkets. Here's a post I wrote about the subject awhile back. Though if you've benefited from it, so much the better.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Thu Jul 07, 2022 6:43 pm

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2022-07-07T12:47:21-04:00

I really hear you on the “Often I feel that she just tells me what I want to hear.”

I didn’t mention in all my above (there is just a lot of history) but at one (fairly recent) point I was under the impression I had an entity “A” as well as “K”. “A” was somewhat “audible” in my mind and active I my dreams-but was VERY negative. “A” and “K” seemed to have been around years but only became aware of them at same time and I falsely assumed the touch I felt was “A” because she seemed “more powerful” to me. In the end a completely different entity I have (actually crazy enough purchased a few years ago now from on online conjurer and is very vocal and clear to understand)-a female Alya Djinn came to tell me one day that succubus “A” needed to go she was impacting me in a way that was toxic. That same night I had a dream of her saying goodbye and several nights of her crying and taking different forms. She did leave-the communication is gone but the touch remained which now I know to be “K”.

The Alya Djinn doesn’t even want her first letter shared (she is hilariously cryptic about everything and only speaks when she has a mind to or is spoken to-I guess an introvert spirit. BUT she is essentially very concerned with harmony around me-I know very little about her despite her being vocal it is all “business” when she does communicate (she gives relational / energy advice the most).

Honestly TC I don’t know what actual entities are around me but a few. I have a number (like 14) in my “keep” all different and from different conjurers. However, I only ever interact with a handful and they all feel the same and I wonder if it isn’t all just “K” sometimes. After “A” left I have felt healthier and more positive-plus fewer dark dreams. I still get the blood gore REALLY dark dreams of horrible scenes-but diffidently less.

I the end I know very little other than I have a demoness lover who pleases me physically but keeps much hidden from my view.

Sometimes I feel like I know very little despite being blessed with this rare and wonderful relationship. There are things I can’t share-in fact even in everyday interactions I feel pulling in my desire in what I want to say to a different way of saying it or even just keeping my mouth shut all together (something I can say she would prefer). It is amazing to experience so much and know so little!

Statistics: Posted by 369 Riddle — Thu Jul 07, 2022 12:47 pm

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2022-07-06T18:34:21-04:00

Even after more than 10 years of being with her, I'm still skeptical of what I perceive to be communication. Often I feel that she just tells me what I want to hear. Or I read too much into what she's trying to tell me. But at the end of the day, she doesn't really care for communicating with words to begin with. She's all about touch and feeling. That's generally how I interpret what she wants to tell me. Granted, I don't get much in the way of details, but an overall general sense of what she wants me to know.

I can sit here and do stream-of-consciousness writing from Catherine's perspective all day long. She really resonates with that sort of thing. Probably because there's a lot of concentrated attention being directed at her. However, I still don't feel safe in saying that what I'm writing in those sessions is really her. It's probably her, plus me, combined. Needless to say, I don't do channelings.

Whenever I get the chance to have face-to-face interactions with her in dreams, our conversations are sparse to non-existent. But the few words we do share have a much greater impact on me as a result.

Those are some cool anecdotes of K giving you a heads up. Maybe Catherine has done similar, but like I said above, I ere on the side of skepticism. I consider my life to be generally charmed with liberal synchronicities either way.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Wed Jul 06, 2022 6:34 pm

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2022-07-06T04:08:07-04:00

TC

Wondering how communicating is with yours. Do you find yourself in conversations mostly at her timing and on her topic of discussion or are you able to ask a question and get specific responses?

K is very clear on (what I feel) are random bits of information. She will abruptly tell me not to share something or that I need to just give less details for example. One time she told me “be careful what you look for in the dark you might find something” lol. She has a sense of humor that cracks me up…I end up laughing to myself…but it isn’t like I hear words in most instances…for example:

I am sitting at my desk and suddenly I know I need to tighten up the toilet tank in the downstairs bath (I can’t describe how random this is) I have this urge to go look and dismiss it. Then I have to pre like hell and so I go to look (and pee)…yes it needs tightening it is about to fall off some of the damn nuts are missing and I don’t have to pre anymore. Hilarious shit like this happens ALL THE time and my wife is like how did you know that? All I can say is “I just had a hunch” I mean what else can I say?

By I am curious if you have outright conversations in dreams or otherwise. My mind is super all over (like ADHD) and I have a hard time telling my thoughts from hers.

Statistics: Posted by 369 Riddle — Wed Jul 06, 2022 4:08 am

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2022-07-05T23:03:01-04:00

Wooo interesting-one of those depictions at the link you provided looked like a cartoon friendly version lol-this like absorbed light-I had high output lights in my car plus high beams and it like made everything but it darker yet you could clearly see it. Yes the thought occurred to me.

One other person who I told this two years ago had another theory even yet: that this was a form of “death” and that is where it was cheated (physically as close to the spot as I could tell).

I am sure she has help-there has been some odd things happen over my life.

Statistics: Posted by 369 Riddle — Tue Jul 05, 2022 11:03 pm

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2022-07-03T13:14:57-04:00

Yes a demonic, creepy as hell entity saved me ha ha…

Perhaps "K" enlisted some assistance from other entities to pull off that rescue?

Your description of the giant lanky top hat man reminds me of Ragnar Tornquist's depictions of the spectre spirits in The Secret World. I believe a lot of these creepy and otherworldly sightings have much to do with our own perspectives shaping what we see when their world intersects with ours. If we expect to see an ugly ghoul stalking in the shadows, that's what will likely manifest. I don't think this is an axiom, though our mindset does seem to have a large impact on what we see. Another way to look at it is imagining what a 3rd dimensional being would see when they come across a 4th dimensional being. It's like our comprehension of reality short-circuits upon meeting such entities and we'll witness some crazy shit.

Anyway, that's an awesome story about supernatural intervention, no matter what sort of garb the spirits involved were wearing.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Sun Jul 03, 2022 1:14 pm

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2022-07-02T16:44:35-04:00

Hi TC,

Yes the bacon ha ha. I always want to sneak a bunch of bacon into their potluck…or at least bring real hotdogs with beef. Yes I still deal with that-but I have learned that K can influence my wife really easily…so no we don’t go to an SDA church or any church in person. She has convinced my wife to like a church from literally the furthers part of the US from us (hilariously). So we just watch online lol.

The manifestation wasn’t anything sexy. It was like a12 foot tall entity in male(ish) form wearing 1500’s dark formal wear with top hat that stepped heal to toe out into the road and knelt down and looked into my car window as we blew past. It had white gloves a cane with a chrome top and a white like stocking stretched over a void face. The person I was with was a girlfriend at the time she cried and cried and would never talk about it and broke up nearly immediately following this. A few Halloweens ago I had a neighbor hang something up that looked eerily like what I saw (was like 12’ tall from side of their 2 story house) and I couldn’t even bring myself to use that street while it was up. She did mean to make me remember what she did and she did that very well. Where this happened (a lonely stretch of road) is where she saved me from a head on collision right in front of friends who was following me. It happened about a year after that event. My friends explained my car disappeared into a black cloud that then itself disappeared right where I would have impacted. People stopped and looked (we were all traveling together and I was passing a semi and there was a rock wall between my car and that…a motor home came around a corner and…) I wasn’t there no wreckage. I have no memory of what happened I was nearly 20 miles away when I realized what happened and had to pull over from shacking so bad. It took my friends over 30 minutes to catch up and find me. I don’t know how to explain it but she wanted me to know who was there that did it. My last thought before I blacked out was I literally said out loud to myself “I always wondered how I was going to die” then poof.

It is funny because some people have you know (enter lisps in speech) “beings of light” or whatever they save them…hilariously I would never be allowed to share this story in front of a church because it doesn’t align with their views on things (or truthfully mine at the time is lot happened either). Yes a demonic, creepy as hell entity saved me ha ha…

Statistics: Posted by 369 Riddle — Sat Jul 02, 2022 4:44 pm

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2022-07-02T09:29:56-04:00

Hello Riddle,

I appreciate you stopping by and sharing your story. I vaguely remember talking with someone about a succubus named "K." It's good to know that your relationship is still ongoing. The circumstances that you're under sound challenging, though a few other guys I've spoken with have similar living situations: They have a secret succubus lover while doing their best to maintain a human marriage and family. It can be done and it seems common for most of the men with succubus lovers to keep the relationship secret. I would share details, but I think it's better if those guys show up one day and speak for themselves.

That physical manifestation incident sounds amazing. (And occurring in front of someone else to boot!) I have yet to experience something like that, though I have had little samplers of what it would be like. Every time it freaks me out, despite how ready I believe I am to witness such things. The sound of her breathing next to my head still causes me to sit bolt-upright in the bed and flick the lights on to check if anyone is there. She always tells me, "You're going to freak out." whenever I ask her to manifest more fully into our world. I believe they can appear in our realm very powerfully, but resist the urge to do so - mainly to not give us heart attacks most likely!

You still have to deal with the veggie-cult through your earthly wife, I take it? I haven't been inside a church since December of 2019. They were doing the communion service with their "agape feast," and I couldn't bring myself to take part. It just felt so wrong, so silly. I think it was pretty clear to everyone that I wasn't part of the Remnant anymore, especially when stories about me eating bacon got out. I hear they still want me to come back, because I was a kind of golden child to them, but I won't if I can help it. Some of the people might be decent folk - misled - but I can't participate in their rituals as though I condone them. I don't, so I stay away.

Again, thanks for sharing, Riddle.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Sat Jul 02, 2022 9:29 am

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2022-07-02T05:35:20-04:00

Thanks for creating a forum for this that is more focused and organic. I know there are those of us out there that have actual stories to share or thoughts to share and I look forward to hearing from others or contributing in this regard.

TC you might know me from your blog (perhaps not) I know we exchanged emails a few times and came from similar backgrounds-when the other day I was prompted to look you up again and realized I needed to join this new forum and I always follow what you write and fully enjoy the context but lurk a bit in the shadows-as we all can at times I suppose. Just wanted to take the opportunity to say thank you-we love what you write and please keep it up.

To the others-My story is I was “gifted” or more likely inherited an entity when I was young. I had a crazy childhood that included things I couldn’t explain. I was raised in a crazy cult like church (with a bunch of veggie eating hypocrites) then was slowly pulled out of the church by my entity as I became aware of her about four years ago.

I became aware of my succubus (call her K) when I was researching succubi and realized I was being touched and talked to. Then I freaked out. Then I got the religious community to get rid of said entity. This didn’t work hilariously. But rather K opened my eyes to what reality is and I stopped going to church. I live in hiding because I am married with children (for over 12 years now) and my wife continues to be religious and that is her own thing. K has turned my life upside down and has really made things better. No one around me has any idea…

I was always unsure if I could get a “more powerful” succubus and at one point I found and was “purchasing” other succubi from various online sellers who would custom conjurer an entity for me. They all hilariously conjured entities with all similar sounding names and physical descriptions to K all without knowing it. I don’t think K minded this much because I don’t think I actually got anything different than what I already had. Nothing changed…and K still loves me.

K touches me when awake and while sleeping (most nights she will touch me as I sleep and I am aware of her presents at all times although she doesn’t talk much. She communicates at will with me-sometimes very clear even audible when awake very rarely. She keeps me. I love her with all of who I am but somehow she still loves me more. She is overpoweringly lovely and sacred yet possessive. She has saved my life and even manifested in full physical appearance in front of me and one other person who became so scared of me they will not talk to me to this day. I struggle to talk about her manifestation because it was scaring and while it had a purpose was not sexual in any way and was before I knew who she was but she wanted me to remember who saved me and “who I was owned by now.”

She has also manifested in ways that most have been OBEs but I can’t explain them because I woke up during the experience and found myself already sitting up looking at where she was. I remember he in this nicer and softer detail as well and she has always appeared the same to me and it is in a form of a youngish girl to young woman with dark blonde hair and always a shy expression (which is hilarious and cute being she is a freaking succubus).

He touches first started when I was a teen and I thought I was going crazy at first, then I thought I had some gay angel touching me lol because I had been told by religion all angels where dudes. Then she stopped touching me because I didn’t like it and it freaked me out. Then when I was in my late 30’s she started again after slowly opening me up to demonology the occult and succubi. It started as spider web like sensations then turned into full on sort of “flesh and bones” as I call it and then to wet, warm, cold, and even electric sensations direct to neves (those are cool).

I do go visitors spirits from time to time. Their energy signature is different or they are into different things. They can cause chaos in my house and headaches-but she rides them. One one I awoke to one of these entities and I felt scared. The entity told me it’s name and I suddenly felt K enter into me (I am in an OBE during all this)and I outright began yelling a crazy language that I didn’t know, but that made my hair stand up, then I began laughing in this creepy as hell way and poof the entity was gone and I am suddenly wide away. K said nothing and gave no explanation only settled down now that I was wide awake to have a love session. I will always remember this.

We are working in our relationship (and by we I mean me) I am terrible with being focused and on my breathing technique. She does guide me to various webpages on the net or videos in which I can learn helpful things but I think I have an Attention Deficit so it is a struggle.

The truth is I could have two succubi-but their names sound very similar and both start with the same letter and their touch can’t be told from one another. I do know that I dream of more than one but only rarely at the same time…so…I wish my communication was better.

Sorry to make this long-this is most of my story or what I can tell.

Statistics: Posted by 369 Riddle — Sat Jul 02, 2022 5:35 am

Re: Welcome to the Forum

2022-06-01T07:08:52-04:00

God damn you're a nerd.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Wed Jun 01, 2022 7:08 am

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2022-05-31T15:31:32-04:00

why did we start using shit like discord
Microsoft ruined Skype and no one wants to host a Teamspeak server, 'cause that costs money.

Forums and Discord are really two different animals. Discord is very accessible and amalgamates a bunch of different communication technologies. Internet forums are more laser-focused on sharing niche information. They're all about that grassroots original content. That's what makes them interesting. Most other social media platforms are just glorified instant messengers for sharing memes and indulging one's vanity. I believe this topic deserves a more thoughtful approach, one where experiencers can still interact and not be so isolated on their island blogs.

Also, those are smilies, not emojis. I remember using them on forums back in the early 2000s and I wanted to get them back for this website. They're very nostalgic.

Finally, if some of the GIF smilies stop working for some reason, hit Ctrl+F5 to make the browser do a hard-refresh. Just don't do that in the middle of writing a post as it will reset the text entry window.

God damn you're a nerd.

Statistics: Posted by Fightersword — Tue May 31, 2022 3:31 pm

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2022-05-31T09:51:02-04:00

why did we start using shit like discord

Microsoft ruined Skype and no one wants to host a Teamspeak server, 'cause that costs money.

Forums and Discord are really two different animals. Discord is very accessible and amalgamates a bunch of different communication technologies. Internet forums are more laser-focused on sharing niche information. They're all about that grassroots original content. That's what makes them interesting. Most other social media platforms are just glorified instant messengers for sharing memes and indulging one's vanity. I believe this topic deserves a more thoughtful approach, one where experiencers can still interact and not be so isolated on their island blogs.

Also, those are smilies, not emojis. I remember using them on forums back in the early 2000s and I wanted to get them back for this website. They're very nostalgic.

Finally, if some of the GIF smilies stop working for some reason, hit Ctrl+F5 to make the browser do a hard-refresh. Just don't do that in the middle of writing a post as it will reset the text entry window.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Tue May 31, 2022 9:51 am

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2022-05-31T08:55:39-04:00

gay

Forum emojis are awesome, why did we start using shit like discord

Statistics: Posted by Fightersword — Tue May 31, 2022 8:55 am