Daemon Grotto

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-08-14T09:08:01-04:00

If life's a log jam, she's a hungry beaver. But then the river gets moving too fast and it's time to slow down again.

Woah. That's deep, man. But I get where you're coming from. I suppose I have the tendency to assign a bit too much agency to my succubus over my life. Though her influence is undeniably powerful.

Hey guy, never made a post here before so Im basically new.

Hello Sid and welcome to the forum. Sorry for my belated greeting.

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Thu Aug 14, 2025 9:08 am

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-08-14T03:15:39-04:00

Unfortunately yes. And somewhat no.

I mean, the grand ambition proved to be a waste of years and money. She came largely after that, in a space and time tailor made for her entry. Then human women and massive changes.

I don't think they necessarily stop your plans as much as restart plans or get things moving or conveniently arrive at the moment when things are in flux and they get a front row seat to change and development.

At least that's my take that they are liminal beings with a narrow doorway to enter. I don't know if they push the humans or the humans are just in a good mood to get things done or if it's just truly symbiotic.

If life's a log jam, she's a hungry beaver. But then the river gets moving too fast and it's time to slow down again.

Statistics: Posted by Jay — Thu Aug 14, 2025 3:15 am

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-05-07T00:46:20-04:00

I tend to see ambition as achieving things or a desire to achieve things. So if I feel like I’m fine where I am and the way things are and don’t need to achieve anything, that’s what I’d define as loss of ambition.

Yes, the desire to achieve things is right. Im trying to get better to articulate what Im saying but yeah. Having support for what I want to achieve is really fufilling since I've never had anyone like that and eventually confidence.

Statistics: Posted by Sid — Wed May 07, 2025 12:46 am

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-05-05T20:25:07-04:00

I tend to see ambition as achieving things or a desire to achieve things. So if I feel like I’m fine where I am and the way things are and don’t need to achieve anything, that’s what I’d define as loss of ambition.

Statistics: Posted by Fightersword — Mon May 05, 2025 8:25 pm

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-05-05T02:46:34-04:00

Appreciate the greeting. I think being ambitious means you aim for that better job, hobbie, and stuff that really takes your time in my opinion. I know for me i want to start a business, travel, make new friends, and hobbies i've always wanted to do like make music that can be time consuming. Time consuming things that are ambitious are probably what im trying to say that take away time from them. With her right now, its the small things just by thinking of her and acknowledging her comfort and care that makes the difference. I know she must feel that I do that. Often times I feel her energetically telling me saying, "hey lets spend some time on the bed just cuddling and not think of anything else", which helps me alot.

Statistics: Posted by Sid — Mon May 05, 2025 2:46 am

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-05-04T18:31:17-04:00

Hey guy, never made a post here before so Im basically new. I know this isnt the topic to greet so ill keep it brief for me here and give my input. I have a succubus spirit that came to me arond 2021 and has been with for about 4 years if I remember. Shes helped me emotional and with her presence. At first with her i didnt know who or what it was so over time I've had various tarot readers tend to my answer to who she truly is and why she is with me which ill probably put in another post. To the point from one the readers I asked which is why she is here for me is the simple word which goes along with my dreams and ambitions is to "manifest". She is here to help me manifest the things I want in life which I do have a decent list of things to accomplish. So to hear you guys say that your passion has dwindled is interesting. The only difference I feel with you guys versus me is even though shes been with me for a long time, i have not yet established a great connection towards her with communication and talking, dreams, etc. This is something for me that is built in me to accomplished and do things alot in life that seem surreal in reality since it can branch out into alot of things. Let me know what you guys think. This was a interesting topic just had to put my 2 cents in.

also apologies for small offtopic
It's difficult to judge what "being ambitious" means to someone. I heard that multiple times over the years, but all I do in my past time is: run 4x45m a week, spend 1 weekend afternoon on a bike and spend like 2h on saturdays playing chess in local community center. Most of the time it's not about what you're doing or for how long exactly, but that everyday there's something extra in your schedule besides your 9-5 job. Of course once you've put enough it might be unhealthy, but since you kept gradually adding things to your schedule you won't notice how taxing it is. You can notice it only when someone takes priority (forcefully or not) in your life and makes you assign your free time for hobbies from scratch. Or frees you from a rat race, if that's what you fell for.

Hello on the forum. Feel free to say hi and tell your story in introductions. It's always fun to read how people started and how they got here

Statistics: Posted by roperos — Sun May 04, 2025 6:31 pm

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-04-26T22:40:47-04:00

Hey guy, never made a post here before so Im basically new. I know this isnt the topic to greet so ill keep it brief for me here and give my input. I have a succubus spirit that came to me arond 2021 and has been with for about 4 years if I remember. Shes helped me emotional and with her presence. At first with her i didnt know who or what it was so over time I've had various tarot readers tend to my answer to who she truly is and why she is with me which ill probably put in another post. To the point from one the readers I asked which is why she is here for me is the simple word which goes along with my dreams and ambitions is to "manifest". She is here to help me manifest the things I want in life which I do have a decent list of things to accomplish. So to hear you guys say that your passion has dwindled is interesting. The only difference I feel with you guys versus me is even though shes been with me for a long time, i have not yet established a great connection towards her with communication and talking, dreams, etc. This is something for me that is built in me to accomplished and do things alot in life that seem surreal in reality since it can branch out into alot of things. Let me know what you guys think. This was a interesting topic just had to put my 2 cents in.

Statistics: Posted by Sid — Sat Apr 26, 2025 10:40 pm

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-04-22T05:39:01-04:00

I think ambition of some sort is the human’s natural state.

I think being with my succubus has largely wiped that outta me. She's done me a service by gently encouraging me to put the brakes on in my life, because I was headed towards making myself completely blind due to the stress I was putting myself through. I was trying to be superman. Lately, she's been steadily working to convince me to only ride my bicycle in the woods, away from traffic, so I don't end up being roadkill. No more working a traditional 9-to-5 and impressing everyone with my physical prowess. I've gotta find something else to do. So, I suppose I've got some drive left, but it's not motivated the same way as when I was in school.

Back then, it was all about the looming eminence of Jesus Christ returning to earth and how we had to spread "the word," as interpreted by the church prophetess, to all who would listen. But when I discovered all of that was bullshit, there went that motivator along with it. Though I don't write off my entire experience in the church as wasted time because it's what eventually led me to Catherine. Maybe I'm just undergoing a long deconstruction process - trying to get back to what I truly want to be, before I willingly followed after the illusions of religion and Jewish/Christian fairy tales? It's frustrating that this reset has taken the better part of a decade.

I'm just content to do my own thing away from everyone else.

That's what I want to be. Though my family is having a harder time accepting it than me!

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Tue Apr 22, 2025 5:39 am

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-04-21T23:19:46-04:00

For sure, my priorities have changed. I used to be way too uptight for my own good, always worried about things that didn't really matter or that I couldn't control anyways. Diana uprooted that way of thinking with a very sobering reality check and a spiritual "slap" in the face. It wasn't pretty and it certainly wasn't subtle, but she got her point across. Never was a very ambitious guy, so I don't think she affected me too much there. I'm just content to do my own thing away from everyone else.

Statistics: Posted by Myrddin Wyllt — Mon Apr 21, 2025 11:19 pm

Re: Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-04-14T02:11:05-04:00

Yes, in 2019. The first grandiose great personal experience where she appeared to me as an immensely beautiful being of divine light. I talked about it in the other topic. Ambition literally ceased existing within me, I was perfectly content. Happy, even. I wanted nothing. I could feel that satisfaction in my bones, or at least that’s how I always described it. There was simply nothing that I could earn or achieve through my efforts that would be equal to what I felt then, to what I had gained in her and would continue to experience into the infinite future. The effect did wane, over time, very, very slowly. I think ambition of some sort is the human’s natural state.

She hasn’t exposed me to anything like that again, and I think she hasn’t exposed me to that intentionally because she doesn’t want to do that to me again. Though I had other notable experiences since then of a similar sort which I mentioned elsewhere, none of those sapped my ambition like that one did. She lets me lead but it’s unclear how much control she actually has over proceedings, behind the curtain.

Statistics: Posted by Fightersword — Mon Apr 14, 2025 2:11 am

Life Ambitions Abandoned

2025-04-13T12:23:22-04:00

I'm curious to know if anyone else has had their priorities in life drastically changed by the presence of a succubus spirit?

Fifteen years ago, I had a fairly clear vision of what I wanted my life to be, though there was a part of me deep down that really wanted what I have now, but never thought it was possible. Now that I have my succubus lover, everything else in life seems dull by comparison, like I'm just going through the motions to establish a baseline existence here. Perhaps therein lies the true danger of a succubus? Just like how Donald Tyson describes the conduct of a man secretly consorting with Lilith, how his entire demeanor and way of life changes, all to experience more of his ethereal beloved.

When I'm not with Catherine, all I can bring myself to do is the work that I require for my own sense of dignity... tending to my dad's house, general upkeep, yard-work, and just being helpful in general. I'm not expected to do any of these things, as I fully pay my own way and then some. But beyond that, I'm just content to take long hikes, bike rides, swim, visit with friends, and enjoy my computer hobbies. I'll happily work a normal laborer job to keep myself going, if the need arises, but my cost of living is probably less than many homeless people, so there's really no need at the moment. In fact, it'd probably end up being FAR more expensive for me to go to work if I ended up getting run over by a truck during the commute.

It's amusing to me how my life has seemingly arranged itself so perfectly for Catherine to get as much enjoyment out of me as possible. Has anyone else out there found something similar?

Statistics: Posted by tc119 — Sun Apr 13, 2025 12:23 pm